Happy birthday, Derek Jarman! Here are some quotes from the brilliant filmmaker:
“But the wind does not stop for my thoughts. It whips across the flooded gravel pits drumming up waves on their waters that glint hard and metallic in the night, over the shingle, rustling the dead gorse and skeletal bugloss, running in rivulets through the parched grass—while I sit here in the dark holding a candle that throws my divided shadow across the room and gathers my thoughts to the flame like moths.”
“I’m not afraid of death but I am afraid of dying.”
“I’m hanging on to life for dear life.”
“Always becoming, never arriving. Life is at a standstill—only ideas flash past. In such confusion I find myself running after them: Hey! Stop! Stop! But they escape, leaving me staring at a grey English spring.”
John Madera's fiction may be found in Conjunctions, Opium Magazine, The &Now Awards 2: The Best Innovative Writing, and many other journals. His criticism may be found in American Book Review, Bookforum, The Review of Contemporary Fiction, Rain Taxi: Review of Books, The Believer, The Brooklyn Rail, and many other venues. Recipient of an M.F.A. in Literary Arts from Brown University, John Madera lives in New York City, where he runs Rhizomatic and manages and edits Big Other.